supa coo journal

afireinside_182 @ 2005-12-15T22:49:00

2005-12-16T04:19:28Z

so the beginning of the night started out really nice. ashley, ashley and i went tobagganing at spons flats. we saw dave fox, jeff barned and bob keeler there. we tobagganed with them for like 2 hours, we made a sweet ramp and such, and had a snowball fight.

after that, i made the gay decision of dragging the girls to the superstore, just to see justin. it was a fucking stupid idea. we were in the electronics and i was talking to justin and before i was in there i was talking to marli in refresh and so she came in and interupted our coversation and said "you're still here?" and i was like "yeah...ashley has to pay for her stuff".....and she said "hmm well let the woan pay for her stuff, i think youre keeping her here." obviously hinting i was there cause i wanted to talk to justin, anyways she said this all right in front of him and then she was like "so natalie told me she met your girlfriend." (i was telling marli last night how i met his girlfriend and i did not once call her ugly, i just said she wasnt the type of person that i thought he would go for.) but she stopped talking about it....she was probably going to talk about it when i left, so he would get really mad at me because she would tell him shit that i didnt even say. so then she just kept saying little comments about me still being there and just being marli, the stuck up bitch that she is.....to say the least, it was horrible, it made me feel really bad, and i really really dislike her.

so after that we went to ashleys house, on the way, we got stuck a few times but nice random men helped us out everytime. we watched the 40 year old virgin, which was nice, and the night ended on a pretty good note, so thats all i've got. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

afireinside_182 @ 2005-11-23T01:18:00

2005-11-23T06:23:56Z

i am extremely in love with joaquin phoenix

thats all, just love

i am going to bone you joaquin phoenix

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

happy birthday travis barker

2005-11-15T04:16:10Z

so i havent written in a few days and thats pretty much because nothing has been going on.

over the weekend we went to turveys get together and hung out with justin and scott and saturday we did dink all til about 11 and then went to brians house. yesterday i went to work, came home and did nothing.

tonight was pretty much the 2nd last night groeny and i can hang out til she goes til peterborough(sad) so we hung out and had a grand old time....we went to my place of employment and her and ash met justin♥....they liked him, which im glad about cause it matters to me what they think.

then we went to walmart haha (were turning into mirella) and we had a gay old time there as well.

we went back to ashley teathers and watched tv and ate some snack.

i am overwhelmed with love tonight and i do not know why, i cant wait for the holidays and the wonderful spirit and happyness they bring and instil in everyone around me. SOO cheeseball i know but i cant help it....this year will be so delightful because i have so much to be grateful for. and if i'm having a bad day here and there i have to always remember that, and remember that i have the most wonderful people anyone could ask for around me always, just making me feel over joyed, and content with my life. well, that is all i have to say for tonight. byeeeeeeeeee.

.nattie.

afireinside_182 @ 2005-11-07T14:55:00

2005-11-07T20:06:16Z

well i havent written in a few days and thats probably because of my arm, i havent felt like writing with it, but im used to it now and its better.

this weekend was ok. i was pretty tired, i worked everyday but hung out with my chillins (kar ash and ash) and that was nice. i cant really remember what we but i had a nice time.

yesterday i wrote somewhat of a song about jason. its weird because i havent really done a lot of thinking about him for awhile but it thought id write it anyways when i'm done i'll post it. anyhoo thats probably it short post i'll probably write again later. byeeeeeeeeee

it's beginning to look a lot like christmas ♥♥♥

2005-11-03T02:15:00Z

today was a very nice day indeed.

it started out with me having to get up and go to a doctors appointment about my ahem....appendages haha.....then mom and i went out for breakfast at the upper deck. i had a marvolous meal. then i went home and back to bed til 1 and just didnt worry about school which isnt good at all.

then after a bit of hanging around, i went over to ashleys and i had to go to walmart for more ribbon. we had a grand old time once again and took some nice pictures with the christmas decorations there. i loved them all!! i wish i could buy everything. we also went to canadian tire and tried the moose horns there but they didnt have as good a sound as the MEGA MOOSE. so we went back home and listened to christmas music haha and read college books....eeek scary

so now i'm home and taking care of mommy moose goose cause she doesnt feel very well and talking to my little bundles of joy kar and ash....cute little suckers. anyhoo i think thats all. byeeeeeeeeee

.nattie.

blink's greatest hits out today!!!!! (p.s...he likes jimmy eat world)

2005-11-02T02:49:52Z

wooo ok so today was a pretty alright day....first i spent it with the gorgeous and ever flawless karley jane, and then when i got home i finally got to talk to Scott Young. we had sooooo much catching up to do it was so cute!!! we talked about all of our old friends and it made me miss those times, its weird its like my times on ellen street when i was friends with those kids, so its always a sad/happy time when i remember.

then i went to work and i worked with justin♥.....yikes hes cute....hes like andre exactly...its weird. he has a girlfriend but i dont care i like working with him and he makes working in electronics not bad at all so maybe i'll like it after all....well le coupe hasnt called me so i guess i'll have to like it lol.

so then i went to the mall and picked up blink's greatest hits dvd and cd and its wonderful!!! of course!!! haha brings back mems and makes me sad to know that they have a greatest hits record now. In the mall i saw cody and he told me he works at zellers now...yeah go figure..matti works there so of course he has to be there with her too....ah well

so here i am just listening to my new cd and for now enjoying life.....until another obstacle arises....such as my moms surgery....which im super scared about but im trying to be brave cause thats what mom needs♥ anyhoo thats all i've got tonight...should be doing homework but nahhhh im pooped and i can do it tomorrow. byeeeeeeeeee

.nattie.

the electronics are not for me

2005-10-30T22:05:17Z

yikes......alright so it's only my 3rd day working in the electronics department and i really dont like it at all. Derek is an awesome guy but i just cant stand around for 5 hours at a time doing nothing almost everyday....i just really hope i get the le coupe savage job, i'd be sooooooo amazingly happy...so yeah thats pretty much all i did this weekend, is work and attempt to learn all there is to learn.......and i hung out with the girls when i wasnt working which was nice and relaxing......laughing always makes me relaxed and happy again, anyways thats all i've got for now, maybe i'll write again later tonight. byeeeeeeeeeeee

.nattie.

♥♥♥♥i love your eyes♥♥♥♥

2005-10-29T03:59:39Z

ok WOW....today was definatly one of the best days i've had in a longgg time. and funny thing....it was because of someone i thought would never be in my life again.....

so kar and i decided not to go to anymore classes today...(or not any classes for me) and so her ash and i decided to walk to ashleys house. on the way kar and ash thought itd be fun to go to voaden...to see randoms, and justin. at first i wasnt thrilled about the idea cause i dunno i was just being a shy goof. but we went and i saw tish and she told us to just come around the side when the bell rang and there was justin haha....it was nuts, and very very nice, he said he'd drop by soon like monday or tuesday, if not ill call him, i want to be near him haha.....for the rest of the day thats all i thought about.♥ even at my first day of electronics haha.

so then, after ash, ash and kar came abck from the haunted house they called me to hang out and meet them at mcdonalds and so i did and then i saw him againnnnn at mcdonalds. it was just swell♥ i saw jason too....but justin was still the only one on my bean, cause jasons pretty much a weird dink, and i would care very much to have sex with justin. wooooooooo beauty day.....and thanks girls, you make me feel wonderful times a mill♥, you're beautiful.....anyhoo thats about all. byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

.nattie.

afireinside_182 @ 2005-10-27T20:37:00

2005-10-28T04:07:11Z

so this afternoon groeny and i took a trip over to marks work warehouse haha it was nice, we didn't see much so we went over to the supa store and we got some food and then went to walmart and had a grand ol time, i laughed so hard i almost peed my pants. we investigated what douche bags really look like haha (theyre like sex)haha and ash tried out the mega moose while i tried on a crazed hunting mask. we scared a grump ass old man by yellling DEY reallllllllll dang loud and the cute electonics boy knows we love him now. i bought some face wash clothes, a cosmo and some white ribbon for next month. i also bought cute barrets and bobby pins and then we headed over to the mall and saw adam ooo la la AND mike palmer but he was with his lady, theyre cute.

then we went and got katie from work....we hung out there for a half hour or so with mattie beer and then we decided it be prettty fantastic to go to red lobster to experience the all you can eat shrimp feast. woo it was delish! we ate so much and the waiters just kept bringing us more haha so we bagged er up and went home...katie dropped one of the boxes of leftovers in the parking lot...goofrat..

so then we had to go to ashies to get her clothes for tomorrow and katie met amber...we got back in the car and ash and i both said "katie, watch out for the leftovers." and what'd she do? sit right on them and they leaked and shit alllllllllll over lol.....she can't handle leftovers thats for god damn sure haha. we almost had hernias on the way home with katie and her nutso voice "DISBROWE!!!!!"

we came home and watched home alone 1 and now we're here hangin out in my bedroom. it was a nice night and i hope to have another one this weekend. anyhoooo that is all. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

.nattie.

afireinside_182 @ 2005-10-26T23:09:00

2005-10-27T03:15:26Z

I've spent my last nights
strung up and pulled tight.
Holding out, sleep and grow.
An answer comes without a please:
'Do what you want.'

Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

Hushed with a finger
Don't say you'll never when you might,
or just another time.
This poison comes instruction free.
Do what you want, but I'm drinking.

Wonder why I'm so caught off guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh

Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss
I'd rather live my life in regret than do this
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased
Hanging on a cigarette you need me you burn me you'll burn me
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased
Hanging on a cigarette you need me you burn me you'll burn me.

afireinside_182 @ 2005-10-26T00:57:00

2005-10-26T04:58:03Z

I love ashie poo.....she saves the day, everyday!!

pumpkin seeds are wonderful..........ps.....my LJ is gay right now

2005-10-26T03:25:47Z

okie dokie so i havent written in here for like 4 monthes but i'm gonna start writing again, cause karley put a gun to my head telling me to and cause i'd like having a spot to write since i'm the computer so much.

so yesterday i got my top wisdom teeth out and they were fine yesterday and didnt hurt but i woke up this morning and they hurt really bad..... oh well....so i lazed around the house all yesterday and today, no work and no school makes me feel dull. so i think im glad to be going back tomorrow. ive been feeling alright lately i guess. everyday is different, it all depends on how other people choose to treat me, and that is their problem because i try to always treat people nicely but that idea seems to be going to shit lately. i think in a way im reallly happy jason doesnt go to school anymore because i wont see him and it wont make me feel like i did last week. i missed him and i wanted to be around him as much as possible and i knew the whole "quit smoking" wasnt gonna last long. its funny becasue i always thought he was the root of my problems all the time but now hes pretty much right out of my life, im wondering where all of this hurt is coming from, but i know life goes on so whatever.

tonight ash. ash and i carved my pumpkin and we ate the seeds, well groeny and i did, they were nice, and i tried not to hurt my teeth too much but im sure ill pay for that tomorrow. ive missed so much school lol i havent gone since wednesday of last week.....its been a nice break even though i only have two classes...the no working part has added to it though.

I start in the electronics on friday. im kinda nervous cause i know i need to learn shit fast cause this is the busiest time of the year and customers will get pissed will me if i dont know my shit, in any case, in a few weeks time i'll know that its better than the hot deli. well thats pretty much all. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

saddest week of them all

2005-03-11T23:48:08Z

this week has been the most eventful and heartbreaking one, in my entire life. literally. on monday at lunch i was starting to feel a bit sick and achey, and i decided to go home cause i kinda felt like i was going to faint, i get sick like 2 a year so i knew this was it so i went home and stayed home tuesday cause i had a high fever monday night and tuesday during the day anyways, then wednesday came, a fucking horrible day that i wish i could just erase from my head, along with all of these bullshit days after it, and more to come. i had decided to go to school cause i had felt better and i was so bored of just being at home by myself, cause mom had gone to the doctor and kate was sleeping. so i went and kate had come to get me at the end of the day and when i got into the car her eyes were beet beet red, i knew right away something was wrong, i asked her and asked her and she wouldnt tell me and then finally we got home and my aunts car was there barbs car was there uncle rolys car was there and dads car was there, i felt like i was gonna throw up, i kept asking katie when everyone was here and she was just silent walking up the steps, so i walked in and everyone was standing there and mom had said aww honey whats wrong and i just started crying even harder then she told me to come up stairs with me and she had told me that she had a spot on her lung she didnt need to tell me it was cancer, i knew already, i just hugged her so tight and she reassured me that we were gonna beat it and it was nothing we couldnt handle she was so strong about it and i will never forget how brave she was. to say the least, there is no smoking in front of me or in my car for a longggggggg time, i am disgusted with the habit and what it has done to the most wonderfully beautiful and strong willed person i will ever know. i know we will get through this, i have so much hope and faith, it aint even gonna bring us down. ash noelle kar ash and nicole, thank you so much for your support its been so wonderful, and ive never been happier and proud to have friends like you right now, your support and friendship has helped me a lot! i love you all with my little heart

i love you mom.

haha noelle you crazy pooface

2005-03-05T14:15:40Z

thanks for that noelle...made me almost pee myself, especially the old woman raping me part (i'm going to rape you in the ass) hahahaha, and finally im glad everyone kows how big me penis REALLY is, andddd its circumsised, unlike a stupid asshole i know, anyways, the taste of chaos is today and im soooooooooo excited i can't hardly wait, anyhoo bye silly fucks

i like balls. big, hairy, sweaty old man balls. in my mouth. and i hate jason.

2005-03-04T21:49:39Z

so. as you all know. my name is natalie and i'm a stupid fucking idiot. i'm also kind of an ugly wench. well really, i'm just plain stupid. i'm in love with karley, but i don't want to tell her in case she doesn't feel the same way as me. i also have a crush on mr.schnieder.. becausehe has a huge bulge and i'd like to touch it, a lot. there's also this girl named groeny, well ashley groenweg, i think she's stalking me and she's amish. i came into my bedroom today and she was stealing my undies.. she had a couple pairs in her pocket that she didn't think i saw.. but i saw it, and she kept them. she's probably at home doing dirty things with them right now. but oh well, who needs undies.. not me. then there's this really cool girl noelle, i'm hopelessly in love with her and i told her. but she doesn't like me back, she turned me down. and now i'm going to kill that bitch, if i can't have her no one else can. she's such a beautiful slut. and then.. there's ashley teather. i hate her. she sleeps with everyone.. this one time she came over to my house and she was wearing a coat. but then she took it off and she was naked undreneath and she expected me to have sex with her. but i refused, because i know she has aids. woo.

so, let me tell you more about this stupid slut groeny. she is SO amish, she thinks electricity is weird, and she doesn't have cable. i guess she doesn't believe in that sort of thing, but she does believe in being a lesbian. i know she does because she tried to seduce me a matter of seconds ago. but i'm not having anyof that, i mean.. me, NATALIE VAREY, likes women. but i'm holding out for karley. i really hope she comes around.. who needs turvey, when you can have me? NO ONE. i mean,. she's pretty ugly and almost bald, but i love her.

my balls are too big. sometimes they get in my way.. i'll be walking down the street and their largeness will get in my way, then i'll trip and fall in a puddle and an old woman will rape me. true story. i swear.

well i have to go now, this is natalie by the way. i swear, no matter what i say at a later date. this really is natalie. and if i tell you anything different i'm lying. like a liar.. all lies. really. it's me. i swear, how can you trust me? i know how.. i'll tell you a secret, and then you'll know it's me for sure. i have a penis, it;s 8 inches long. and if you don't believe that, then come and find out for yourself.

i love shawn hewitt..and that weird killers kid. goodbye.

afireinside_182 @ 2005-02-22T15:54:00

2005-02-22T20:55:09Z

my fucking journals wont post and i cant copy them